Day 2 of Grateful Hearts
Tuesday, November 2, 2021
I am grateful for my life. I have always tried to live a positive life, as I figured out my calling and purpose. Occasionally, negativity creeps into my life, whether by negative confrontations, unwanted negative thoughts, and/or those dreaded Mercury Retrograde periods.
I often meditate on them, and soon realize that the best way to deal with negativity is through somehow turning the negative situation into a positive outcome, which is sometimes easier said than done. As I work on fixing the issue, I also improve upon it by making it even better than before. I figure that such annoying nuisance happened for a reason, and I need to pay more attention to the particular circumstance, whether it has to do with health, item, or relationship issues. As I focus on the particular problem, I concentrate on ways to improve the overall situation, as well as ways for preventing such issues from reoccurring.
Another example includes when I first graduated from college and I lacked job connections. I networked all the time, but the only feedback I received was to go back to school and get another degree. I got tired of hearing that because I was sick of school, studying, and reading, although I did not mind reading a good novel because that was actually fun, relaxing, and entertaining. But I eventually gave in because these business people might know something I was not aware of, and if many strangers kept giving me the same advice, then it might be a sign. After I got my Executive MBA, someone advised me to get a specialization. I thought to myself, when will all this end? Since I had a passion for art and photography as a hobby, I decided to get a Graphic Design certificate.
One boring day, while flipping through the television channels mindlessly, not really watching anything because everything on television was beyond stupidity, I did notice one channel talking about the big hype of many fashion-related novels currently on the market. I just shrugged it off as whatever and I can write one. A sudden voice literally growled back at me with, then do it. You have nothing better to do with your life. After thinking to myself, WTF, I realized this rough voice was a wake-up call out of my depressive state of boredom. I thought to myself, Yeah, why not?
I started right away, writing the rough draft of my first novel, and I finished within one year, but editing the novel, drawing the covers, working on promotional materials, and doing lots of research took two years, before finally self-publishing my first novel, which felt very empowering. It felt so empowering that I felt I could do anything afterwards. So, I decided to draw a graphic novel from scratch, even though I had no idea how to do a graphic novel. But I wanted to do one and I did one, which involved lots of never-ending research to learn every aspect about a graphic novel production. I soon realized that drawing a novel is double the work of writing one, although it was not difficult. But I learned so much in the process, which includes that I can do anything on my own because I have all the basic skills. And, what I do not know, I can learn it on Youtube and other Internet sites as well as actual books and magazines. I actually won a screenwriting book at a UC Irvine raffle, which I took as a sign that I should continue with writing. It helped me write a script for the graphic novel. I also bought a how-to magazine detailing a Do-It-Yourself list to write a novel from scratch, which helped me write my first novel. I also learned to never stop learning because there is always something new to learn or, at least, improve upon.
Life is about always learning, growing, and living as well as making most of one’s current life. I also realized that God gave me what I needed when I needed it to make my life easier, and what I did not have, I did not really need. Therefore, I should not worry about anything I wanted but did not have because I did not really need it, even though I just thought I needed it.